Its funny..

..how things work out.

you can think one thing, but something happens and you feel completely the opposite way.

thats how things are with my ex. i thought i loved the girl, but it turns out, it wasnt that at all. you think you find something, but its just a false illusion. a false sense of the truth. it seemed like things were gonna go well, but its quite obvious to me that things really werent what they seemed.

its an interesting thing, how someone responds to a broken heart. currently, im extremely spiteful. I gave someone my heart, and guess what. it got destroyed. so, i figure the least i can do is return the favor.

while this may seem really mean, its the way life is. dont fuck with someone if you cant take getting fucked back. you’ll all experience it one day. maybe not a broken heart, but just something that someone does to you that is just a huge blow to you. You’ll feel how i feel right now. vengeful. you’ll want to take out your anger at the person who fucked with you.

its human nature really. if someone does something to you, you want to go eye for an eye. i mean, we were all brought up saying not to do that, but when you grow up, do you really listen to that? no. you won’t/don’t. its just human nature. revenge is a part of how we function. we seek revenge to compensate for our loss.

is it right? not necessarily. sometimes it is. you want hte person to know how you feel. if its within legal limits, then of course its okay. but it may not be the best thing to do if you really don’t feel that way towards the person.

however, i’ve established that i do feel this way. i feel like someone reached inside my chest, tore out my heart, and stomped all over it. and i want her to know what i feel. so if you read this, i hope you’re fucking happy with yourself.

but heres the thing. i can always move on. i can find someone else. i’m definitely able enough to do it. to quote my roommate “any guy has a chance with any girl he feels he has a shot with. you just have to play your cards right, otherwise, you’ll fail” which is some advice to live by. same with girls. its just good to know that someone knows what they’re talking about.

now, i swear im not normally like this, but, you also have to take into consideration who this is. this is the girl i thought i loved and i thought loved me. that wasnt true apparently.

and honestly, oh well. i can give what i have to offer to anyone else that wants it. i wont give it to anyone that easily cause i refuse to go through this again.

and btw, if you decide to come back to me, you better have a good excuse for this and why you want to come back. and MAYBE i’ll consider it. you need to prove you want me. cause i feel unwanted. and thats not how i deserve to feel.

and if you want me as a friend, you better make your case. cause currently, im not liking you at all.

sorry. but you brought this upon yourself.

have a nice life.