“Can’t do this to myself..

..no, i need some help.”

And thats what I got. So, I’d like to thank my friends for putting up with me and listening to me. I got some great advice, and I’m beginning to live the life I lived with her, while i don’t have her. Happy is where i need to be, and no one is going to bring me down because its just not worth it.

To quote brian about my last post, I’m making some great emotional progress, and its true. I went from spiteful, to regretful, to sad, to whatever, to okay, to happy. Which in my opinion is basically how someone who lost someone that was special to them should feel in the beginning. But ultimately, you can’t let them bring you down. You may deep down still love them and resent this, but you can’t let them take over your life and upset you.

Listen to “Hate (I really don’t like you)” cause that’s currently how I feel. Like I said, while I deep down still love her, apparently we ended for a reason. Whether it be because its not meant to be, or its just not meant to be while i’m at college, or its just meant for us to wait till another time to be together. Whatever it is, I can’t be sad about it.

So fuck sadness. Mike is happy. And thats all that matters really.

kthanksbye : )