While I will still be using WordPress being that it is a great blogging tool, I have officially purchased a website.

A Fading Star

Welcome to the real deal, Mike. You’re own website.

Its going to be a great thing.

Hopefully, I’ll get to moving all of my pictures up there and if I have some funny videos, I’ll move those up there too.

So, for the time being, enjoy!

Signing off from wordpress.com,

-Mike

thanks to all of you loyal visitors for checking up on me and seeing how im doing.

and thanks to all of you that read and actually talked to me about whats in my blog even more. i appreciate it.

so. happy 5000!!

She typed me a paragraph and we talked via text (yeah. i know. great way to break up, right?) and basically what she told me is that she doesnt really know and its possibly the distance. The uncertainty is quite depressing. Its like being told that you are considered an outcast and not even being given a reason why. Especially when you seem to be fitting in superbly.

Honestly, that’s what i feel like. An outcast. Lost. Confused. Unsure. I never knew that breaking up consisted of all of these things. I mean, i knew that things would be rough. But nothing like this. I know what people mean now when they say they have a broken heart. Its bad.

Another thing..she wants to be friends still however, I’m telling her that she needs to prove to me that she deserves me as a friend. Because currently, I don’t see a reason to be one to her. In a relationship, its important to not only be the boyfriend or the girlfriend, but also the other party’s best friend. And honestly, thats what i would want even if we werent together. A best friend. And i don’t regard a best friend as someone who makes you feel miserable. They’re someone that picks you up when you’re down. Not someone that drops you down to that level and on your face none-the-less.

And you know what i have to say about that? I’ll say it in conclusion and in song..

“Hate is a strong word,
But I really, really, really don’t like you,
I really don’t like you.

Now that it’s over you can’t hurt me,
Now that it’s over you can’t bring me down.”

Thats right. You hurt me no longer.

Oh and btw. I know you’re reading this. So maybe you should think of something to cheer me up or change my opinion of you being that you still care about me. So if you do, you’ll find something..anything. Then maybe I’ll consider friendship.

PS: I’d like to be friends. A lot. I just don’t have a reason to be after i devoted and apparently wasted so much of my time on you to make you happy. Maybe its about time you returned the favor..

And thats what I got. So, I’d like to thank my friends for putting up with me and listening to me. I got some great advice, and I’m beginning to live the life I lived with her, while i don’t have her. Happy is where i need to be, and no one is going to bring me down because its just not worth it.

To quote brian about my last post, I’m making some great emotional progress, and its true. I went from spiteful, to regretful, to sad, to whatever, to okay, to happy. Which in my opinion is basically how someone who lost someone that was special to them should feel in the beginning. But ultimately, you can’t let them bring you down. You may deep down still love them and resent this, but you can’t let them take over your life and upset you.

Listen to “Hate (I really don’t like you)” cause that’s currently how I feel. Like I said, while I deep down still love her, apparently we ended for a reason. Whether it be because its not meant to be, or its just not meant to be while i’m at college, or its just meant for us to wait till another time to be together. Whatever it is, I can’t be sad about it.

So fuck sadness. Mike is happy. And thats all that matters really.

kthanksbye : )

well, i am.

I guess it’s time for another heartfelt entry by me. Sorry kids.

Have you ever had something happen to you that you wish you could change? Just a series of events that you wish you could throw behind you, and just forget about? Not ever have to worry about them ever again? Well. These past couple of days have been very rough on me. And I really can’t help but to be upset about them.

Recently, I’ve lost 2 people in my life that were very important to me. Not through death, but through falling away. Something that i wish never happened. The first was rough, but not as rough as the second. You never realize the value of certain people until they are gone for good. Especially for reasons taht are ridiculous or for no reason at all.

The first was lost to jealousy. jealousy of someone else that i have grown to love to talk to. Someone who understands where i’m at and i just don’t know what i would do without at this time. While, this person is very important to me at this point in my life, the person I lost was more important at the time. She was a great person, and I dont know where i would be today if it wasnt her comfort and affection (non-bf/gf relationship). And honestly, if it wasnt for her support, i’d probably be where i was in january and beginning of february. A mess. So, I guess its a little too late to thank her, even though i know she knows that i was/am grateful for every little thing she did for me and i know she was grateful for every thing i did and said for her. The times when her other half wasnt around to make her feel okay. I miss you. A lot.

Now, for the biggest heartbreak i’ve ever felt. 4 months+ of absolute ecstasy. The best feelings that i’ve ever felt in my entire life. Now they’re gone and unrecoverable except in the memories that bring tears to my eyes. I gave everything and got everything in return. It was probably the one relationship that i never expected to lose completely and now its gone. I can’t really describe in words how i felt about this girl. She was probably one of the most influential people in my entire teenage life. Moreso than my parents. She was the greatest thing that ever happened to me, and now she’s the worst. While i still have feelings that are somewhat strong, I’m starting to come to grips with the fact that they’ll never be the same. Never will i feel the warmth that she provided in my life both physically, emotionally, mentally, and in my soul. Once again, if it wasn’t for her, i dont know how i would have survived the end of my senior year at high school. I love her dearly, but now that its over, all i have left are tear stains and used tissues from being so upset. Yes, my last post was spiteful, but with every problem, your first instinct and tendency is towards anger and spite. I realize that was very wrong and like I said, i’m sincerely sorry. It was wrong, and I know you accept my apology, but it wont do me much justice at this point being that it was over before that entry was really written.

Well, I’ve come to the conclusion that I have a decision to make. Either give up completely or hope for some sort of revival. While my tendencies lean towards optimism and hope, I don’t think my personality can carry me far in this aspect. I don’t think that my feelings will ever be quite the same about anyone. This is why I have hope. Because I hope that she can find a way to love me again. But like I said, I dont think that hope can carry me far this time because i cannot control other people’s feelings.

You may be wondering why we’re over completely? Well, to be honest. I’m not quite sure. I know we had some hiccups lately, but like any couple, shit happens. Its a well known fact. Well, I’m a little confused. I’m sure that the hiccups were the cause of everything, but i’m not sure of a definite answer. When I find out, I’m sure that i’ll post something about how i fucked up or how dumb i am. To be honest, its how I get over myself. Self-pity. Oh well. Such as life.

So there you have it. Two of the biggest heartbreaks of my life. One right before college, and one very recently. So basically, I don’t know what to do with myself. While yes, I’m meeting new people and making new friends, I cannot replace these two people in my life. At all.

An amazing friend, and the girl i love. Those two things are irreplaceable. And those two things don’t care about how I feel really. Its quite depressing. The first just wouldnt listen, and the other is just giving up completely. Honestly, it seems like she moved on during the first fight and just found someone or something. I have no idea what happened to sway her decision towards nothing in a matter of days after we have had the hiccup. Especially when we’ve pulled through some bumps many times. Hell. We came from a GIGANTIC bump. an accident in a way. But a beautiful accident. And hell. To quote Motion City Soundtrack, “You said we were an accident. With accidents you never know what could have been. You say we were an accident. You’ll always be my favorite one.”

I dont really know what to make of any of this. Its just so. Like. Confusing and upsetting. I’ve been basically haunted with nightmares since the first bump. I haven’t had a single happy dream. Which has been leading to restlessness, fatigue, sickness (yes..im lovesick), and just feeling like shit. You seriously don’t think that you could feel the effects of a broken heart that a people describe until you actually experience them. Its probably the worst feeling in the world. I hate it. But theres nothing I can do at this point except put her in my prayers and hope god’s listening and can do me a solid. However, i have shit luck. The one lucky thing I have is gone. So. I’m fucked.

Well. Enough of me ranting. I’ll probably post some more feelings later.

<3?? </3? i have no clue..

“I’m so (And when the rain comes)
I’m so lonely for her (It’ll fall and that’s okay)
I’m so lonely for her, I’m so (And when the sun comes out)
I’m so, I’m so lonely for her (It’s gonna be a beautiful day)
I’m so lonely for her
I’m so, I’m so lonely
I’m so lonely
I am so, All I know is
Why I am so lonely for her
For her”
-Jack’s Mannequin

let me know!

As I walked in the room, the smell of beer stuck to my nostrils. Another weekend, another party. So goes the college life. And as we all know, you don’t go to a party for the most part and stay sober. However, tonight I chose to because I knew that people were going to need some help tonight getting into bed. But, you have to wonder why kids do this to themselves. It can’t possibly be to have fun, because stumbling around and throwing up what you just drank isn’t my idea of a good time.
A typical part of a college student’s life is going to parties and having a good time. This is absolutely normal, but the part that isn’t is drinking yourself into the ground. College students on average, consume over 55 six-packs of beer (or the equivalent of 330 beers) and a total of $446 on alcohol. This is pretty outrageous. There really is no reason for people to be drinking as much as they do. Even when I go out, I never drink to get drunk, which is the motive behind many college students, and even teenagers. Usually, when they get this drunk, people begin to do dumb things, which I have already witnessed.
When we walked into that party the other night, people were already so drunk that you could tell exactly what they had been drinking by just talking to them and smelling their breath. Cigarette smoke filled the air making it a little difficult to breathe without choking on the smoke. There were already people that were passing out on couches in the living room, and it was quite difficult to move due to the swelling waves of people. You had to keep your arms at your sides and say “excuse me” every two steps just to make sure you didn’t offend an angry drunk. And you also had to be careful that you didn’t slip while walking because there was a thin veneer of beer on the floor.
When all of my friends finally got to where beer was being handed out, they all made sure to grab more than one just so they didn’t have to fight through that ocean of drunken college students that I described earlier. Upon walking back upstairs, people were crowding the bar begging for mixed drinks. This is where you could probably take a breath and get drunk from the fumes of the vodka. People were shouting out drinks and the bar tenders just kept pouring. However, after a while, people started to get out of hand.
While sitting down at the couch monitoring my friends and how much they’ve had to drink that night, I heard a scream and I saw a drink come out of no where and hit a girl completely drenching the girl it was intended to hit and some other innocent bystanders. Two drunk girls began to yell at each other exclaiming words like, “slut” or “whore” and they were even taking shots at each other’s size and weight. It took two large guys to break up the almost fight. Soon after they were separated, the girls began drinking again and seemed to completely forget that they almost threw punches at each other.
Ignoring the amount of alcohol these girls both consumed, why do people get angry when they’re drunk? Sure your judgment is impaired and you aren’t your normal self, but how can you simply pick a fight with someone else for no reason? Seriously. If you get angry that easily when drunk, you should first off not be drinking to completely avoid the problem, or do something with your anger other than use it for fighting. This whole drinking idea seems absurd at this point.
Anger is not the only way that people can get themselves in trouble or just look plain dumb for drinking. We all know the one person that makes a complete fool out of himself or herself when they’re drunk. Me and my friends discovered who this person on our floor was extremely early. Without mentioning names, he lives at the end of our floor in our dorm, Leo. The only reason that people know him is because he is a complete moron when he is drunk. Recently, he came back to the dorm completely trashed and people offered to give him two dollars each to run down our hallway naked. I found all of this out after I stuck my head outside my door to find out what all of the yelling was. When I did, I saw a stark naked man running down the hallway. Is it really necessary to run around naked while you’re drunk?
Once again, this is where judgment comes into play. If you cannot even see straight, it is never a good idea to let people know you are drunk. They’ll take advantage of you faster than the amount of time it took you to funnel those three beers. People just need to realize their limits and if they know that they are not in a good place to make a judgment call, they need to sit down or go to bed. That’s just the bottom line. Don’t do anything dumb or something you wouldn’t do when you’re sober.
Clearly, drinking isn’t as appealing as its made out to be. In commercials, you always see people having a great time, men getting all of the pretty girls, and girls getting all of the attention. However, the one thing they don’t show is later that night when that good-looking guy or girl is passed out on their toilet throwing up. Getting drunk is clearly not as great as it’s meant to seem. So to all of you people that insist on drinking yourself into a coma, please stay away from me. I don’t want to associate with you. I don’t want to see the horrors of drinking first hand. Thanks.

you can think one thing, but something happens and you feel completely the opposite way.

thats how things are with my ex. i thought i loved the girl, but it turns out, it wasnt that at all. you think you find something, but its just a false illusion. a false sense of the truth. it seemed like things were gonna go well, but its quite obvious to me that things really werent what they seemed.

its an interesting thing, how someone responds to a broken heart. currently, im extremely spiteful. I gave someone my heart, and guess what. it got destroyed. so, i figure the least i can do is return the favor.

while this may seem really mean, its the way life is. dont fuck with someone if you cant take getting fucked back. you’ll all experience it one day. maybe not a broken heart, but just something that someone does to you that is just a huge blow to you. You’ll feel how i feel right now. vengeful. you’ll want to take out your anger at the person who fucked with you.

its human nature really. if someone does something to you, you want to go eye for an eye. i mean, we were all brought up saying not to do that, but when you grow up, do you really listen to that? no. you won’t/don’t. its just human nature. revenge is a part of how we function. we seek revenge to compensate for our loss.

is it right? not necessarily. sometimes it is. you want hte person to know how you feel. if its within legal limits, then of course its okay. but it may not be the best thing to do if you really don’t feel that way towards the person.

however, i’ve established that i do feel this way. i feel like someone reached inside my chest, tore out my heart, and stomped all over it. and i want her to know what i feel. so if you read this, i hope you’re fucking happy with yourself.

but heres the thing. i can always move on. i can find someone else. i’m definitely able enough to do it. to quote my roommate “any guy has a chance with any girl he feels he has a shot with. you just have to play your cards right, otherwise, you’ll fail” which is some advice to live by. same with girls. its just good to know that someone knows what they’re talking about.

now, i swear im not normally like this, but, you also have to take into consideration who this is. this is the girl i thought i loved and i thought loved me. that wasnt true apparently.

and honestly, oh well. i can give what i have to offer to anyone else that wants it. i wont give it to anyone that easily cause i refuse to go through this again.

and btw, if you decide to come back to me, you better have a good excuse for this and why you want to come back. and MAYBE i’ll consider it. you need to prove you want me. cause i feel unwanted. and thats not how i deserve to feel.

and if you want me as a friend, you better make your case. cause currently, im not liking you at all.

sorry. but you brought this upon yourself.

have a nice life.

cause its so effing catchy!

“Cause all you really need
Are a few good friends”

is probably my favorite lyric from the song. cause its so true.

i <3 these guys.

cant wait to see them in october!!

on top of being tired, im in a horrible mood.

things just are getting fucked up like crazy, and i’m not liking it at all. ughhhhhh

someone wanna cheer me up?

join this group and invite all of your friends.

lets fight against facebook!!!

CLICK!!!

thats right. steve irwin died.

crikey. thats a bummer.

if i haven’t told you or mentioned it, my blog was linked by After The Tragedy (a great band)

soooooo. i contacted them about HTO and they’re going to send me and EP to review. I’m super excited about this being that this is the first band that I have come into contact with.

Hopefully, i’ll be doing the same with other bands too!

Wish me luck

i just died laughing.

click to enlarge

i had a calc I final as a part of my calc II homework today. super. and i had more practice problems on top of that.

i finished my philosophy stuff before and im finishing up the lit stuff as we speak.

200 word response to a poem. grrreat.

currently im listening to 4:AM Forever. and its love.

what else is currently going on so i can stay away from this homework.

umm. dan is reading. everyone else is also doing homework so there isnt much to report.

i’ll post later, kids.

im excited.

hopefully i can make it to breakfast with some friends. if not, pop tarts it is! lol. the only reason i wouldnt make it would be if the little schedule switcher thinger says “go to your new class NOW”. cause my new class is at 8 today lol

so i’ve been having a lot of fun. the first day, me and dan walked around the dorm and made friends. a bunch of us went to dinner. then we chilled. then we all had floor meetings which took forever and were so painful. after those, we walked around and gathered some people to go to a party. then we crammed into a van taxi and off we were. we got there and it was a good time. i found a football and had everyone sign it because it was our first college party lol. me and dan were up next for beer pong when the keg kicked. so we all decided to leave which was a good choice. the cops came about 5 minutes after we did lol. then we went back and chilled up in dori’s room. then at like 1ish, went to bed.

next morning we had all sorts of crap to do. we first ate breakfast. then we went to a meeting about various student things. then i talked to some people and went to lunch with them while dan went back up with a couple guys into our room. then i went back up as we walked down to the cabaret to watch some skits about the dangers of being on your own in college (alcohol, stalkers, no tollerance for different lifestyles/cultures, and rape). they were funny only because of the way they were presented. but Brother Colin would shut us up immediately lol. I love him tho. he’s a very funny guy with an uncanny resemblance to kevin bacon. no joke either. if i can find a pic, i’ll post it up here. anyways, then our final meeting was about security and the rules.

after all of these meetings, me and casey decided to go get our macs fixed with the mac version of the software so we could get onto the wireless network. after that we went down to the gym and lifted and after he left, i ran a little on the tredmill cause it was raining outside. the gym is quite nice. looks like a club’s gym lol.

after this, i went back and showered and then several members of our floor went out for dinner. here’s where the fun comes lol.

after dinner, we’re walking down the sidewalk-type-thing. we look up at our dorm, and through someone’s window, we can see that they have christmas lights. so we counted the floors, and it was the 4th floor. so we went up there and figured out who it was. then when they opened up the door and we saw the lights, we all screamed “eyyyyyyyyyyyyy”. then we turned around and saw that everyone came out of their rooms to investigate the commotion. so we figured we’d experiment and see who would come out like the 4th floor did. so we did this on the 5th and 6th floor and met all of the people on the floors then headed down to the 2nd floor. mind you, 1st and 3rd floors are the only guys floors.

so we partied, then at 9:30 we went to get some milk and cookies. thats right. milk and cookies. lol. then after that a couple of us went down to play some pool. i ended up teaching courtney how to play. it was me and her VS simon and kelly. we lost, but it was close. we’ll play again some time.

finally, we went back up to kelly, courtney, and casey’s dorm and chilled for a little. dan finally found us after he stayed at milk and cookies for a while. then we crashed at like 12.

this is the real deal.

am i ready? probably not.
am i pumped? heck yes.
am i going to miss you all? of course
am i going to miss my tsucca? im gonna miss her the most out of anything<33
am i going to have a blast? fuck yeah!
books, calculators, and study parties? i’ll take both meanings of the terms please.

lets do this.

wish me luck! i’m gonna need it.

more to post later when i get settled.

Kyle: i think i got it
Me: got what?
Me: something to sell?
Kyle: make up some crap like Pete Wentz worn t-shirt!
Me: aahahahahahahaha
Kyle: some 13 year old girl is bound to buy it for a good 200
Me: thats so good to life
Me: kyle you’re such a rat
Kyle: i know

so exciting, yet sad. idk how to handle it

im pumped, but i still feel like holding back for obvious reasons.

wow. theo from radio x commented my blog on the music industry.

amazing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the one thing thats bothering me about leaving just got to me right here right now and i couldnt handle myself.

im not sure im gonna be able to handle leaving.

ughhhhh. why me?!

how come i wasnt invited? i would have owned.

lol. way to be enraged patti.

and way for us to be talking at. oh. 2:15 AM. nice.

and it makes you feel 10x better?

cause i do. thanks chris.

i think all i’ll ever need is music to cheer me up. cause thats usually what does the trick.

i need a life. and someone in my arms.

why am i such a fag about that shit too?

oh well. questions that have unknown answers.

and wow typing out things going through my head on accident. (i deleted them, but oh well. i’ll tell you maybe if you’re nice)

this is a random pointless post.

my mood is better is the bottom line.

i really hope i wake up with a smile on my face. otherwise, idk.

things just arent working out how they should be. and its just really frustrating..idk.

now im depressed. woo moodiness. life sucks. i suck. goodnight.

hopefully i’ll just not wake up. that sounds like a good plan.

call me or text me to test that theory tomorrow. nighttt

beacause like. if you go out of your way. to make your girl smile and be happy. and they just. like. make it seem like they dont care, and they just go onto something that was in regard to something not even remotely related to what you were just saying, wouldnt you feel unwanted and unloved? cause thats what im talking about right now. thats kinda what i feel.

you know im also wondering? do guys that don’t care about their girl deal with this? cause its really quite annoying. its just one of those little things that i hate about women. its just the little stuff that annoys me because its the little stuff thats most important.

you know when all of those bulletins on myspace or whatever that go around and tell you about “how to get a girl” or some stupid thing like that? when you go out of your way to be that kind of person, that kind of boyfriend, and someone just brushes it away, does that completely negate those stupid things? does it prove that women are never consistent?

i think its about time that they all made up their minds as to what they want. i think they should let us know what makes them happy. and when it does, they shouldn’t get sidetracked. or move on. or shy away from what was just said. i think they should open their eyes to whats going on and not be so freaking confusing. they should be open about it. they should clearly show that it made them happy. and clearly state if it doesnt.

its all or nothing. you want it, or you dont. you can’t “kinda” like something that someone does. So when you want to show appreciation for something, show it. Otherwise if its not there, or like half-assed, we’ll think that you don’t like it and not want to do it again.

so guys, i say, until then, you have every right to be a complete dick. because women that can’t make up their minds and choose to be confusing and choose to be annoying get what they deserve

thank you for listening to me being angry at women

goodnight.

PS. im sorry if this offended women or anyone particular person, i just needed to vent. i guarantee this isnt how i feel in the morning.

I love it when that one guy gets speared. i think its the 4th one. that made me laugh.

Enjoy

Click

i gotta pray i die or im killed.

if not, i pray im killed upon impact. cause if i survive, im dying slow and painfully.

100 nuclear bombs is a fucking lot, so im sure i’ll die upon impact unless it hits like india or some country a half a world away lol

interesting stuff.

i might go pick up that book.

This is quite possibly the coolest case mod.

Ever.

the fact that me and my roomie set up a code for partying says something right there.

i cant wait ::claps hands::

in other news. 10 beers last night. new record. ::takes a bow::

great party kerrianne!

YO NO HABLO INGLES!

if i had my computer, i wouldnt have this problem cause it would have saved the entry.

oh well.

all you need to know is that it was a good time. a very good time. im just angry that 10 minutes worth of typing got erased.

grrrrrr

still have a lot more to spend for this bad boy i call a dorm and on myself also. i need shoes.

thanks mommy and daddyyyy

yeah thats basically all i did today. that and went to the bikini carwash at igloo. very worth it lol.

just about a day till 6 flags. SO STOKED.

i think thats it. and btw. enjoy the new theme.

all it equals is a mad stomach ache in the morning.

oh well. no big deal. i just need some food and water.

PS: where’d the fuckin music go?! aha. good times.
PPS: danielle. i was drunk. you dont have to run into traffic.
PPPS: ashleigh. i really appreciate last night. no joke. you’re the best!

O_O

ahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

thats so amazing to life. you have to have a pair (literally too lol) to do this.

mad props.

i was out for a grand total of 8 hours and came home at 3AM.

I first went to the movies with greg. we got a call saying that one of his friends was having a “get together” at his house to drink and have a good time. So we watch the movie and greg wants to invite these girls we saw to the party. they looked like they were 16 tops. he didnt realize that. so get ready for this pickup line..

“hey, wanna play some beer pong”

write that one down ladies and gents. thats a one for the record books. of course he got shut down and i ripped on him until we got to the party. I told him a pigeon was giving him the eye and he should ask it if it wants to play beer pong lol.

so we drove back to my house to pick up greg’s car and we call people up seeing if they wanna come. we get mandy alyssa mollye and kristen (idk how the hell greg ended up meeting mandy and alyssa but he did lol) and i got danielle, kristin, julia, and matt. them plus me, greg, tim, and deluca is the most random group of people evahhh.

to sum up the night. i didnt drink cause i was DD, everyone else did. we sat around and talked and laughed (and even had a learning experience thanks to drew). Then we drove home and said we’d party it up again.

sick night.

could have been better lol

my god.
this lady is nuts.
and this guy is my hero.

xx we jammmin xx: im making a screenname, and i want it to include start something. what should i put in the middle/after
xx we jammmin xx: 88?
TurtleLos2: no. 74
xx we jammmin xx: for?
xx we jammmin xx: whats 74
xx we jammmin xx: lol
TurtleLos2: idk
xx we jammmin xx: lol
xx we jammmin xx: im still not sure what i wanna do
TurtleLos2: just use 74
xx we jammmin xx: i dont like 74
xx we jammmin xx: startsomething74 just doesnt sound good
xx we jammmin xx: lol
TurtleLos2: no but it adds up to 11 which adds up to 2 which are 2 of my favorite numbers which also represent the turtle doves
xx we jammmin xx: what
xx we jammmin xx: the
xx we jammmin xx: fuck
xx we jammmin xx: was
xx we jammmin xx: that
xx we jammmin xx: lol
TurtleLos2: just trust me on this one
TurtleLos2: it makes sense
xx we jammmin xx: i like 88 better
xx we jammmin xx: lol
TurtleLos2: fuck thatr..its too generic
TurtleLos2: it has no meaning
xx we jammmin xx: its my birthyear
xx we jammmin xx: lol
TurtleLos2: its too generic
TurtleLos2: 74 has passion
TurtleLos2: love
TurtleLos2: christman
TurtleLos2: doves
xx we jammmin xx: how about 47 cause thats my number for sports
TurtleLos2: turtles
TurtleLos2: no
xx we jammmin xx: 74 doesnt flow!
xx we jammmin xx: lol
TurtleLos2: yes..it does
TurtleLos2: 47 is your sports number..but who puts tehir sports number backwards
TurtleLos2: it alludes to dyslexia, which is a disease, showing your a compassionate guy and care about those less fortunate then you, instant chick magnet
xx we jammmin xx: ahahahaha
xx we jammmin xx: just for that one
xx we jammmin xx: im doing 74
xx we jammmin xx: because that
xx we jammmin xx: was just pulled outta your ass
TurtleLos2: haha..common you just needed a lil help to realize the power of 74
xx we jammmin xx: 74 apparently is more powerful than i thought
TurtleLos2: it is
xx we jammmin xx: im now enlightened with the power of 74

best video.
ever.
case closed.

ahahahahahahahaha

but things are working out again all over the place, so im a happy camper now.

::claps hands::

why is it so unfair?

allow me to go jump in traffic now.

bye.

cause i do..

can you see it as hollow instead of a regular face? cause i cant. lol

I then brought up that when i was listening to the 3 some-odd months before they hit the radio, she wasnt the slightest bit interested and said that i shouldn’t claim the band when i didnt discover them (cause i didnt get them a gig and im not their manager/agent..completely irrelevant) so i shouldn’t care. Then i mentioned her listening to them because of the radio and because they were popular. She then went off on some rant about how i shouldn’t tell her what to listen to. Once again off-topic.

Is everyone that blind (or just ignorant) to not see that the radio is telling people what to do/listen to? Cause I’m thinking that if the government really wanted to, they could brainwash our youth with it. That combined with the TV, and you have a problem. Thats why i barely watch the two. And when i do, i listen to my underground radio, and if i watch TV its sports or like south park or anything on comedy central.

Oh the american people. You crack me up.

the good: brian is having a good day which is good cause its in regards to the forum i’m a part of (http://extendmac.com). He got interviewed by a magazine (MacGuide). Link to the interview here: click

congrats!

and i’m going to watch one of my favorite movies of all time right now. Behind Enemy Lines. Its so gooddd.

later

But um. i’ve noticed a really interesting trend that people have known for a while but really never talk about. The radio.

Music is a huge part of nearly everybody’s life now-a-days, so a staple for a bedroom is a stereo complete with radio, cd player, cassette deck, and auxillary input (usually for a computer or iPod). So kids listen to the radio. In particular the stations that play all of the top-40 songs. So they generally hear many of the same songs over and over again generally killing the song/artist.

So yes, i listen to a couple random songs from those stations like Shakira’s “Hips Don’t Lie” and Chamillionaire’s classic, “Ridin Dirty”. But not like religiously. They’re good driving songs. But once one of them stops being requested or drops off of the charts, the song is off of the air. Thus your 15 minutes of fame. Also, the song stops getting requested cause the radio stations play them so many freaking times.

Anyways, i was noticing recently that my sister is playing The Fray non-stop. Now, when they came out on the radio she liked “Over My Head (Cable Car)” a lot. But never really listened to them a lot. Now she’s been listening to them like 3 times a day for about 2 weeks now. You say, “So what? She likes the band.” I say, “No. She likes them because they’re popular. Not just because they are a great band, but because the radio plays them and her friends listen to them and like them.” You say, “Yeah okay. Prove it.” And I say, “Sure.”

So anyways. This is another reason the radio pisses me off. I had introduced several people to The Fray. Then people started hearing them on the OC because “Over My Head (Cable Car)” was a part of the soundtrack. Then all of a sudden. BAM! Top-40. Huge success. They even re-mastered and re-did the song. Now you still say, “So? They’re good. Maybe she likes them.” I still say, “No. There’s more.”

I was playing The Fray for about 2 or 3 months before they became famous. And she wouldn’t get into them. Never downloaded them, never made any attempt to get into them. And even before that, i saw them at the weezer concert over a year ago. Still convinced that she likes them? Well you shouldn’t be cause the radio has the power of suggestion. Especially the Top-40 stations. They show people only the popular stuff to get big ratings.

Now, here’s my favorite part. Underground radio. The newest sensation on long island, Radio X, is probably something that more stations should use. They don’t play the same song for like 3 days AND they are almost completely commercial-free. They have maybe 2 minutes of them occasionally as opposed to 10 minutes out of 60. (stream Radio X using this link: http://216.177.128.203:8000/ ). It doesnt use the power of suggestion at all. Its about loving music. Not trying to be popular cause that’s what everybody is listening to. Its ridiculous.

But yeah. Thats my rant. Let me know what you think.

Man’s Code

but for the sake of saving me time and fingers, heres what i told my cousin. you would have had to be there to experience what we went through. way too intense/scary/funny/everything to describe using words.

11:34:05 PM xxwejammminxx: hoyl
11:34:06 PM xxwejammminxx: fucking
11:34:07 PM xxwejammminxx: shit
11:37:44 PM dancegirlie31289: wat
11:38:19 PM dancegirlie31289: ????
11:38:48 PM xxwejammminxx: intense thunderstorms
11:38:52 PM dancegirlie31289: where
11:39:46 PM xxwejammminxx: here
11:39:49 PM xxwejammminxx: i was driving
11:39:52 PM xxwejammminxx: and we were joking around
11:39:57 PM xxwejammminxx: because when the storm started
11:39:58 PM xxwejammminxx: all it was
11:40:02 PM xxwejammminxx: was like lightning
11:40:03 PM xxwejammminxx: thats it
11:40:07 PM xxwejammminxx: so we were playing shakira
11:40:23 PM xxwejammminxx: and we were like oh ha ha ha i want a hurricane shakira
11:40:29 PM xxwejammminxx: so we dubbed it hurricane shakira
11:40:37 PM dancegirlie31289: and thats its name?
11:40:44 PM xxwejammminxx: yeah
11:40:44 PM xxwejammminxx: but like
11:40:47 PM xxwejammminxx: it wasnt bad
11:40:52 PM dancegirlie31289: im lost
11:40:56 PM xxwejammminxx: hold on
11:40:58 PM xxwejammminxx: im not done
11:40:58 PM xxwejammminxx: lo
11:40:59 PM xxwejammminxx: l
11:41:01 PM dancegirlie31289: is that the official name and u came up with the same thing?
11:41:06 PM xxwejammminxx: we came up with ti
11:41:11 PM xxwejammminxx: so like
11:41:17 PM xxwejammminxx: we were driving
11:41:20 PM xxwejammminxx: down the highway
11:41:25 PM xxwejammminxx: and then the lightning
11:41:32 PM xxwejammminxx: started to get so freaking intense
11:41:36 PM xxwejammminxx: and the wind started to kick up
11:41:41 PM xxwejammminxx: so we were still joking around
11:41:49 PM xxwejammminxx: “ha ha ha shakira is getting angry”
11:41:55 PM xxwejammminxx: then the fucking rain came
11:41:57 PM xxwejammminxx: holy shit
11:42:01 PM xxwejammminxx: we were in the mustang
11:42:05 PM xxwejammminxx: and had the top down
11:42:09 PM dancegirlie31289: =-O
11:42:16 PM xxwejammminxx: so we stop at the next light
11:42:24 PM xxwejammminxx: and are frantically trying to put the top up
11:42:27 PM xxwejammminxx: light turns green
11:42:35 PM xxwejammminxx: so we’re holding the top down
11:42:41 PM xxwejammminxx: as the wind is not letting us
11:42:45 PM xxwejammminxx: and the rain is pouring in
11:42:54 PM xxwejammminxx: and we’re driving waiting to get the top fully down
11:43:02 PM xxwejammminxx: cause we cant do it while driving
11:43:12 PM dancegirlie31289: =-Oomgomg
11:43:20 PM xxwejammminxx: so we finally get another red light after like 3 minutes
11:43:24 PM xxwejammminxx: and i get one latch down
11:43:30 PM xxwejammminxx: and it turns green
11:43:34 PM xxwejammminxx: my latch is still off
11:43:40 PM xxwejammminxx: so we’re holding the top down
11:43:44 PM xxwejammminxx: and im driving with one hand
11:43:52 PM xxwejammminxx: trying to steer away from the puddles
11:44:06 PM xxwejammminxx: and we finally get to our destination (mollye’s house)
11:44:08 PM xxwejammminxx: but she lives
11:44:12 PM xxwejammminxx: like 20 minutes away
11:44:28 PM dancegirlie31289: eee
11:44:45 PM xxwejammminxx: so
11:44:48 PM xxwejammminxx: we get there
11:44:52 PM xxwejammminxx: and mollye owed me gas money
11:44:54 PM xxwejammminxx: i get the money
11:44:57 PM xxwejammminxx: and we drive off
11:45:04 PM dancegirlie31289: ic
11:45:34 PM xxwejammminxx: so we’re driving
11:45:42 PM xxwejammminxx: and the roads started flooding
11:45:53 PM xxwejammminxx: so we’re pretty much kayaking down the roads
11:45:58 PM xxwejammminxx: and we finally get to the highway
11:46:06 PM xxwejammminxx: the storm is getting so freaking bad
11:46:09 PM xxwejammminxx: like if you were here
11:46:14 PM xxwejammminxx: you’d know what im talking about
11:46:17 PM xxwejammminxx: power is out in places
11:46:18 PM dancegirlie31289: yeah
11:46:22 PM xxwejammminxx: so anyways
11:46:38 PM xxwejammminxx: its like continuous lightning and the rain is absolutely pouring
11:46:46 PM dancegirlie31289: yuckkk
11:46:50 PM xxwejammminxx: so liek
11:46:55 PM xxwejammminxx: we’re driving in the middle lane
11:46:59 PM xxwejammminxx: in basically a caravan
11:47:19 PM xxwejammminxx: cause people are all staying away from the right and left lanes cause they were completely flooded over
11:47:29 PM dancegirlie31289: omg
11:47:57 PM xxwejammminxx: so we’re driving down the center lane
11:48:01 PM xxwejammminxx: and its getting really bad
11:48:09 PM xxwejammminxx: so we’re all doing like 30-40
11:48:13 PM xxwejammminxx: in a 55 zone
11:48:17 PM xxwejammminxx: power is out
11:48:18 PM dancegirlie31289: mmhmm
11:48:20 PM xxwejammminxx: so the lights are out
11:48:30 PM xxwejammminxx: and finally get to the road
11:48:36 PM xxwejammminxx: that i need to drop my friend off in
11:48:45 PM xxwejammminxx: and we get down the block next to his
11:48:46 PM xxwejammminxx: and i say
11:48:48 PM xxwejammminxx: holy shit
11:48:51 PM xxwejammminxx: we’re leaving a wake
11:48:53 PM xxwejammminxx: the water
11:48:59 PM xxwejammminxx: was flooded like 2 feet high
11:49:10 PM xxwejammminxx: we basically could have kayaked down the road
11:49:11 PM dancegirlie31289: =-O
11:49:15 PM xxwejammminxx: i drop him off
11:49:16 PM dancegirlie31289: holy shitt
11:49:23 PM xxwejammminxx: and as soon as he opens the door
11:49:28 PM xxwejammminxx: every single window fogs over
11:49:34 PM xxwejammminxx: i cant get them defrosted
11:49:40 PM xxwejammminxx: thank god i was close to home
11:49:43 PM xxwejammminxx: i drove like super slow
11:49:47 PM xxwejammminxx: and looked for lights
11:49:53 PM xxwejammminxx: in case i needed to pull to the side
11:50:02 PM xxwejammminxx: cause i was in the center of a two way road
11:50:03 PM xxwejammminxx: to be safe
11:50:07 PM dancegirlie31289: righ
11:51:01 PM xxwejammminxx: so i finally get home
11:51:07 PM xxwejammminxx: and i felt like i was in a fucking movie
11:51:12 PM xxwejammminxx: esp after seeing pirates
11:51:18 PM xxwejammminxx: (which is why we were out)
11:51:20 PM dancegirlie31289: haha ibet
11:51:24 PM xxwejammminxx: i felt like a pirate braving the storm
11:51:25 PM xxwejammminxx: lol
11:51:33 PM dancegirlie31289: johnny depp baby
11:51:36 PM xxwejammminxx: we were even joking around in the midst of it all
11:51:43 PM xxwejammminxx: and as we were holding down the top
11:51:51 PM xxwejammminxx: i was screaming out to my friend evan
11:51:55 PM xxwejammminxx: DO NOT FUCKING LET GO
11:51:59 PM xxwejammminxx: YOU HEAR ME?!
11:52:05 PM xxwejammminxx: DO NOT FUCKING LET GO
11:52:11 PM xxwejammminxx: like we were in a movie

it felt like we were. it was so freaking dramatic and intense.

i’d do it again tho. it was a fun experience.

oh hurricane shakira. you slay me.

i honestly can’t stand them sometimes.

just humans in general piss me off so unbelievably bad.

why you ask?

cause they don’t think. thats why.

enough said.

oh boyyy lol

Opening Credits:
Superman – Goldfinger

Waking Up:
Having A Blast – Green Day

Falling In Love:
Hands Down – Dashboard Confessional

Fight Scene:
New Skin – Incubus

Breaking Up:
Hemmorage (In My Hands) – Fuel

Make-up:
You Have My Attention – Copeland

Secret Love:
Dirty Little Secret – AAR

Life’s Okay:
Sweetness – Jimmy Eat World

Mental Breakdown:
Hoobastank – Out of Control

Driving:
Ms New Booty – Bubba Sparxxx (come on. how can you not have fun in the car if this is blasing?!)

Flashbacks:
Day 7 – Explosions In The Sky

Happy Dance:
Shake That Bush Again – The Mooney Suzuki

Regretting:
Don’t Forget To Write – Last Winter

Long Night Alone:
Lonely For Her – Jacks Mannequin

Final Battle:
Down With The Sickness – Disturbed

Death Scene:
Chasing Cars – Snow Patrol

Ending Credits:
Same Problem – Waking Ashland

here’s my reading:

she mentioned stuff about my sister being a lawyer (my sister was commenting about thinking about it recently), my dad being a jack of all trades (stuff around the house, teacher, artist, etc), that he was sick now and would be better (lymes disease). She also mentioned that there was money to be had “under my mom’s feet” (Arbonne..that cosmetics thing that my mom does falls under that category) and that we won’t be wealthy but my mom just needs to stop worrying about money.

so basically i’m quite happy right now lol

hanging out with ally and ashleigh tonight. swimming and a movie. so thats another thing to make me happy.

im out for now cause i gotta get stuff done. cell me if you need me.

we sat around, went in the water, ate, ran, and went in the water, then collapsed of tirednesss

overall really good day.

yesterday was pretty fun too. me and ashleigh hung out for a little while. wish it could have been longer but her dad wanted her back cause she didnt get much sleep. so its all good cause she was one of the people i went to the beach with (the other being some corner whore that drove us.)

we saw 5 fireworks? lol im pretty sure we saw more than that

what. the. fuck.

this is fucking hilarious ahahahahahah

however i did get some exercise by riding my bike up to igloo to visit ashleigh on her break today.

other than that another boring night. oh well. i have plans tomorrow night and monday morning/afternoon before work so its all good

I’m seriously done with life. Its fucking ridiculous how done I am.

Why must everything good that i have fuck up. My luck is just fuckin unbelievable.

I’ll just go mope around now.

Text me if you wanna cheer me up or something..

its ridiculous!!!

i’m up till at least 1 every night. doing nothing besides!

grrrr. i was tired before i got home (at 10:50ish) and now im not tired.

WHAT THE FUCK?!

anyways. i think im going to *try* to go to sleep.

can anybody explain this?! holy shit!!!

This has to be some sort of world record.

3.2 million firecrackers.

Wow.

Thats all i have to say. If you read this. you know who you are. Just because you have better opportunities than everyone else or don’t care about other people’s dreams doesnt mean that you’re right or that they’re wrong. Because you think that everyone slacks, doesnt mean that everyone actually slacks and doesn’t do their best. Your definition of doing your best isn’t necesarily right. Devoting your life to something and relying on something should be expected. If its something you are good at, why shouldn’t you want to do it for the rest of your life? Just because someone doesn’t do well in school doesnt mean that they slack. Some people are just born without the ability to learn like the rest of us. They just can’t comprehend certain things. They SHOULD have to rely on one thing to get them through life because its something they’re good at.

Open your eyes a little. See that people do need other things than academics to go somewhere in life. Also see that because people aren’t like you, they don’t try like you. Just because someone cannot reach your level of success doesnt mean that they aren’t trying their hardest. Some people aren’t capable of the same things as others. so wake up.

Italy won yesterday in overtime in liek that last 2-3 minutes of the game. The one thing I don’t agree with that people are saying is that Germany just gave up and thats why italy scored their second goal. They scored the second goal because Germany went all out offense and Italy caught a fast break. beautiful passing and great shooting. There was absolutely nothing Germany could do. The Italians took their opportunities. The Germans had them also, but messed up. Towards the end of the game, Italy just wore down the defense of the Germans. It could have been 4-0 but they got unlucky.

Anyways, France is winning over Portugal. And i want them to win. I dont really like Portugal too much because of their performance against the netherlands in the quarter-finals. They took advantage of the referee.

Well, i’m gonna go for now. I have the ducks game today too. So maybe something will actually work out for once, this week.

Laterr

Sucks for all of you bootleggers out there.

Good idea too!

i’m home

don’t have fireworks

and i’m bored.

super.

monday: beach (getting up around 8 to leave at 9) then get home around 3-5 (idk an exact ETA here lol) then working 6-10
tuesday: 4th of july party at the scully residence with tons of fireworks lol
wednesday: ducks game with some crazy kids
thursday: break
friday: out with rob?
saturday: working 10-4

not super busy, but just how i like it. busy enough lol

but yeah, i’ve done nothing these past two days except for work. fun lol

well i wanna get off so i can eat and shower and begin my day. laterkids

started off okay. i woke up at 11:30 which was nice but i had to do a lot of cleaning so that blew.

watched a little ESPN and ate. then cleaned more.

then came the mall. ashleigh had to be home by 9 so we couldnt watch out movie which was kinda upsetting, but we’ll be with each other 3 days next week so we’ll get over losing an hour or 2 together. She also gave me the new dashboard CD which is really good. thank you ashleighhh. but we went into hollister, A&F, AE, and pac sun (they didnt have these sick board shorts in my size so i might go to the south shore mall to try and find them cause i liked them a lot). I ended up getting a polo at hollister then a shirt to go underneath at AE. then we went out to starbucks in Islip and saw Jill (will’s cousin) who i havent seen in like a year so taht was nice.

then i dropped her off at home and went to steve’s house cause he was having people over for poker. i got in just as vin lost. so i took his seat and bought in. it was me, alfio, steve, kyle, and gavin. i ended up winning $35 which was good cause that means i didnt spend a lot today. then me and steve played ddr for a little (and i learned for the second time that i suck ass lol) then i left at 11. so yeah. fun day. lots of excitement. and i won some cash.

it was sickkkk. so im gonna go. probably play a game or two of starcraft then hit the sack. later

everything has taken a turn for the better and im feeling much more sensible about things as opposed to me being closed minded and not seeing the big picture.

while things aren’t completely resolved/better, i have a feeling that everything will fall into place eventually. whether it be months or years, it’ll all work out in the end. i trust that it will.

while my feelings have been wrong in the past, things are different this time. its a different type of feeling and idk how to explain it. while i’d love to try, i dont think i can for various reasons.

oh well. i’ll figure out things at another time, but right now all i have to say is that i couldnt be happier. just wow.

so true.

life’s been a rollercoaster lately. and idk what to make of it

i’ve been holding my head above the water of life, and hopefully tonight or tomorrow night, i’ll at least get my upper half out.

i hope things work out and straighten out :-\

congrats seniors ’06!!!

highlights:

wednesday: swimming with las chicas (the maiden and the tsucca) and a movie under the covers lol. good times

thursday: physics regents in the morning followed by a celebration with coop, DQ, and alyssa. a good celebration at that aha. then graduation rehearsal which was good. worked that night

today: work work work. my mom was psycho trying to get so much crap done. i even cut myself trying to start the power washer lol. my family is now here from upstate minus my one cousin and uncle. the ones i wanted to be down here to save me from boredom too lol. oh wellll

tomorrow: GRADUATION!!!! and graduation partizzle! stop by if you wanna. call me first so i can expect it lol

peace out hommiesssss

can anyone explain how this works? cause its fucking amazing.

this guy is awesome.

im thinking that my moodieness is stemming from my mom stressing out over graduation and flipping out over every little thing. its getting quite annoying lol

well, being that its summer time, i thought i’d post this little link…

Click here if its hot out

so much for that..

god damn it i wish things were constant.

but at least they did something good with it.

sick.

Click

so schools over. wow. its pretty amazing i’ve come this far.

today was fun. i was around the house all day and then ashleigh came over for a while.

then we visited ally cause she was home alone and got her ritas when we went.

but yeah, im in a great mood right now. something i havent felt in a long time. its really nice.

She randomly goes on rampages and gets mad at me.

Its great. (sarcasm times 24919357138975617561)

She best better hit menopause while im in college or im going to probably kill myself.

Save me from killing myself!!!

its unreal. its just weird realizing that im a senior and im going away to college soon. i really dont want to leave my close friends behind, but i know that no matter what happens, we’ll remain in touch.

anyways. lets stay away from that topic.

PROM! it was tons of fun! it was at East Wind Caterers. The only thing(s) that sucked was a stomach i had at the beginning of the night and that the food sucked.

Good dancing, good friends, good night.

Too bad several things happened that changed the outcomes, but its not a big deal. one was that the afterparty never happened cause we couldnt get in touch with the people that were having it. but it ended up being okay cause i was tired and still felt kinda crappy.

Overall a fun time.

But i have to do some things, so i’m outta here for now. peaceone

this is supposed to be the best night of my life tomorrow and so many things have gone wrong so far.

why cant life remain constant instead of all of a sudden having everything come completely unglued and fall down on me?

ughhhhhhhhhhh

fuck lifeeeeeeee

not only is it 6.6.06 tomorrow, but my cousin (the big ugly one) is having a child

god help us all.

and his wife.

::prays::

and i’m very excited! lol

cant wait (once ashleigh and heather finalize shizzit im going)

friday was marist for freshman orientation which was fun.

we played some crazy games and took some good pictures. i’ll post them when they’re up on the website.

i met some cool/fun kids and such and had a great time.

that night i went home and played poker with tom, kyle, steve and scott. kyle and scott split the pot.

i dont feel like detail today lol

today was okay. NYSSMA was a blast lol. that lady was nuts! my judge let me pick my own scales which is unheard of on level 6 (highest level) lol. then apparently she enjoyed my performance. which was bad lol.

oh well.

then i just chilled out all day. im kinda tired. i may go to bed soon cause i have to be up early for soccer. new hyde park at 9. ughhhh.

well, my macbook shipped today! two days ahead of schedule too!

if it reaches Long Island by friday and i dont get it by like 5, im gonna run down and pick it up cause i wanna play with it over the weekend lol

but umm. its in China right now. or at least was. its shipping across the pacific ocean right now. neat fact: my computer has IN FACT gone back in time. (beat that one suckers )

so it should reach somewhere in cali or something (hopefully) today. i would guess it would be a 12 hour trip (at the longest) and it left China at 10:30 AM (EST (aka New York time)). so i figure it’ll get here on like friday, but wont be at my door till monday. in which case, i’ll be driving to the place that its at on friday night or saturday lol

so, yeah, im helping out michelle with her guy problems. and it seems to be working so far. basically, im telling her what i like and what catches my attention, so heres hoping her guy thinks somewhat similarly lol. otherwise i did a bad job.

but she’s helping me out too. so its all good.

so yeah, blood drive today. it was good. minus ashleigh passing out. that was bad. i stuck my head in there a couple times to see how she was doing even tho i couldnt give blood yet cause it was too hot in the room and people werent doing too well.

so i finally went down and gave blood. took me less than 10 minutes which was good/bad. good because i got it over with quick. bad because it left my dizzy and extremely light headed. they put the back of my chair down and put a cold cloth on my head which was really nice. plus i had the fan right next to me too so it was all good.

i really dont wanna do this school thing anymore. high school at least. its getting on my nerves. i want classes to be over so i can have a great summer!

however, the whole at the end of the summer i have to leave my friends thing isnt so appealing.

well, i gotta do stuff before work tonight (6-10)

laterrrr

(feel better ash!)

(click to enlarge any images below)

and here’s the computer itself:

and a link to the Quicktime 360 view: here

Hopefully that what i havent worked out gets figured out being that its not on me.

We’ll see how it goes.

Although it seems to be okay now, who knows.

bad news: the rest of my life sucks

cant seem to get anything right and my relationships are imploding right in front of my eyes.

cant wait to sleep forever tonight.

Clever, eh?

(Click to enlarge)

Click

AMEN!

well get this:

Click for link to Newsday.com

you couldnt tell that it was a scam from the beginning?

way to go!

oh people and their computers. how dumb can you get?

::shakes head::

lol

well yesterday was entertaining, i went to the beach with heather and ashleigh. i threw ashleigh in the water lol. her pants got soaked. heather was wet too. i was relatively dry. good pictures too lol.

after that we went to ritas (after a failed coldstone attempt) and got some gelatis and custard.

then we went bowling with steve scott and kyle.

so basically it was michael jackson, steveooooooo, and kille on one team and the other was ashgay, heathgay, and s coot.

our team was domination lol.

oh, and me and ashleigh are geniuses. we both managed to hop a lane. mine was a complete accident. no clue it was gonna happen. ashleighs however was her bowling lefty and dropping the ball. i launched a 6 pound ball at a 9 pound ball that was caught in the gutter, and it clipped the 9 pounder (which went down the gutter) and completely shot off our lane 2 lanes over. and i knocked 8 pins over ahaha. it was so good to life. we were laughing so hard.

yeah, so today, i have no idea what im doing. im hanging out with deirdre in the afternoon, but who knows where thats gonna have me end up at.

peaceone

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oh sean lol

well, yesterday was senior cut day. i waited for all my friends who werent seniors to return from school so i could hang out with them

me and mollye went to the mall first which was a good time

then we went to mandy’s house with krystie then headed to the animal shelter to get sean a cat. once we found one, we departed to ray’s house to pick him up, then we got sean at the train station and went back to mandy’s house

longstory short, we all ended up meeting with: nat, mark, aaron, tim, zac, alyssa, reiger, billy madison, steve, and thats it

we finally ended at steve’s house where we watched jarhead till one-ish and went home

THE END!

anywho, i need plans today? wanna make them?! call me!

clicky

so good!!!

im going to sleep now, so i think i’ll find some more bands and put them all in one post instead of being annoying lol

peaceone

click me!

enjoy some more!!1

“never letting go” is my fav

check ‘em out here

enjoy!

I love them right now lol

search “call me. stalk you.” on google. punctuation doesnt matter. just those 4 words in order.

im number 1 on the list!!

random but cool lol

Me: “and they didnt have a glossy finish on the black? what gives? (i was going for white anyways. i like it better than the black)”

Peter: “AH HA! PROOF OF RACISM! now we can proof it’s immortlone and not AJW. “

Me: “oh har har har. minus where i have a black iPod”

Peter: “he’s just your iSlave. lol”

Me: “wow..just wow. although technically, he is my iSlave because i do tell him to do a lot for me. like play me all my favorite bands and remember lots of info. he also plays games with me and even mixes things up once in a while. he’s a good little iSlave lol”

oh extendmac.com

anyways, good weekend.

on friday me and ash went to Roosevelt Field Mall for a while which was fun. Then we got ice cream lol..oh those spanish people lol. (and if you read this, you’re getting that money back one way or another lol)

saturday was intense.

10-3 car wash 4:30-12:00 mayhem with alyssa, mandy, sean, and krystie

we were everywhereeee. we went to alyssa’s, copaigue to pick up sean, then Burger King where we played in the play place cause we’re cool kids like that. then we went down to modells/old navy (me and sean were playing in modells while the girls were shopping in old navy). Me and sean had a lot of fun there including him jacking an air horn (which we then proceded to scare alyssa and mandy with lol) then we proceeded to EI where we got bathing suits and chilled at mandy’s. Then mollye needed to be picked up and dropped off at home so me alyssa and sean went to dunkin donuts/king kullen to visit hasone while mandy drove and krystie went to go babysit. After more mayhem including getting yelled at by an undercover security guard, “Hips dont lie” and other crazy shizit, we went back to mandy’s and chilled in the hottub/pool. good times!

sunday meant more action! chelsie’s sweet sixteen! it was fun once everyone got there. me and murphy won the dance competition lol. other crazy stuff which cant even be described in a post. just dancing and having fun like woah lol

(btw mike, you’re a PIMP lol)

ok. sorry for the long post, but thats it for now

peace

this week has been ok i guess. a couple bad days every now and then

i almost killed my arm on saturday even tho i didnt post about it

i have a rope thats on a jungle gym i had from when i was younger, so i was playing keep-away with my dog, and i went to swing from one part of my yard to the next, and the rop is really old and waterlogged, so it snapped from under my weight. theres a tree right next to where i was and i fell on it and slid down it. not fun. basically, all i have is a nasty scratch. however, if i had fallen maybe 3 inches back (maybe less) i could have easily broken my arm and/or dislocated my shoulder. if i walked in like that, i dont think my mom would have been able to take me to the hospital cause it would have been really REALLY bad. trust me lol. the fall wasnt pretty.

anyways, school has been ok. calc party tuesday. amazing food. we had all sorts of heroes and salads and such. and cake! and we sang, “We’re AP students” (parody of We Are The Champions written by Mr. Coulton, the AP physics teacher lol). Hallie texted us from the room next door to tell us to shut up, and in particular ryan. good period!

other than that its been boring. the weight room is being redone (thanks boomer!) so we’re in the gym for a while. i cant wait to see the new equipment. im hearing that there will be treadmills. i’ll be running all period. no joke lol. but we played kickball and we lost cause lavy made rules up as we went along lol

so, thats it for now.

peaceout!

(yeah i know the thing says AYDS, but still lol

just goes to show you that black people are better dancers from birth

this is amazing lol

i really hope i didnt fuck things up..

i’ll start with last night. me and ashleigh hung out and visited all the juniors working on the jr prom decorations and such and we ate and hung around. nothing exciting, but still a lot of fun.

then today we had the MS walk. i got there around 9 and jut got back. it was me, joe fitt, bill palazollo, matt makowski, jen lawrence, sherry davis, hallie stambler, her mom, and mrs. dinota.

we chilled from 9-11 (when the walk started) and just talked about random shit. then we walked the 2 miles really quickly and split. fun stuff.

um, today’s plans:

sounds exciting, no?

well im gonna go relax now cause this is the first weekend in forever when i actually can. i may even lie out in the sun.

amazing lol

peaceone

its sad.

you should check it out. its a really nice song.

link here

and its late

i got back from work an hour ago and in spite of my laziness at work. i dont wanna sleep

so i’ll try and write about some more stuff later.

goodnight y’all (i swear im not from the south lol)

..oh god i need sleep

btw. did anyone watch the Real World tonight? how funny was that gay dude and his partner situation. they were all so interested. even the guys. and svetlana. wtffffffffffffffffffff

tell me what you think!

very true.

how do you think i got my nickname Father Stillwell aha. (no it was not mollesting little boys although mollye likes to make fun of me even tho she made the name lol)

um lifes been pretty good. friday i hung out with ashleigh and ally and watched RV (which was pointless) and then after we left ally’s (cause she had SATs the next day) me and ash went to brookwood hall for a little and played/talked on the playground until the drunk kids came and we decided to go home cause we didnt wanna deal with them.

saturday was fun also. minus working 10-4 which wasnt too bad except for it was really hot in the store, in particular, the back room. i picked up alyssa, krystie, and sean and went to Roosevelt Field Mall and walked around. We mainly went cause krystie wanted sean to get stuff for Jr Prom, but me and alyssa went into Hollister and she tried some stuff on while i picked out a polo and bought it (she bought none out of the 6 (?) items she picked out). i like my polo tho lol. um then we went back to sean’s house where sean krystie and their friend danny smoked and me and alyssa swapped massages and fell asleep on sean’s bed. then we went to 7-11 for food then went home.

sunday = soccer = me “killing people like its my job” (lol thanks deruvo) = me dying = me sore today.

yeah, we had an intense game (3-3 tie) and i killed some bitches and im paying the price for it now lol..but i did get a chicken bacon bomber out of it lol.

today was blah..for whatever reason, me and ashleigh wore the same color shirt which was really odd. complete coincidence. double of physics was reprieved with a movie and sleep

thats it for now. peaceone.

OWNED

i know i did well on the mult. choice. the “part two-sies” were ok. overall good feeling about the test. im expecting a 4 or a 5

so in other news, school has been sucking cause its like a month till its over. its draggin its ass.

um, not much is happening really. heathers birthday is coming up so if i dont post, happy birthday heath!

and thats all i can think of besides work tonight 6-10 ::gags::

peaceone.

You see a gorgeous girl at a party. You go up to her and say, “I’m fantastic in bed.” That’s Direct Marketing.

You’re at a party with a bunch of friends and see a gorgeous girl. One of your friends goes up to her, and pointing at you says, “He’s fantastic in bed.” That’s Advertising.

You see a gorgeous girl at a party. You go up to her and get her telephone number. The next day you call and say, “Hi, I’m fantastic in bed.” That’s Telemarketing.

You’re at a party and see a gorgeous girl. You get up and straighten your tie, walk up to her and pour her a drink. You open the door for her, pick up her bag after she drops it, offer her a ride, and then say, “By the way, I’m fantastic in bed.” That’s Public Relations.

You’re at a party and see a gorgeous girl. She walks up to you and says, “I hear you’re fantastic in bed.” That’s Brand Recognition.

more words of wisdom from greg aha.

[] i’ve been to at least 5 rock concerts
[x] i think smoking weed is hilarious (if other people do it and i watch lol)
[x] i play grand theft auto san andreas and think everythings cool (chyeah boy!)
[] video games are about 75% of my life
[] i can barely read without pausing after almost every word (ok. thats not cool lol)

[x] i’ve gotten in one or no fist fights
[x] i hate basketball
[] my favorite colors are or used to be black or red
[] i own a pair of chained pants
[x] kiss, led zepplin, ac/dc, and aerosmith rule

[x] panic! at the disco, green day, and my chemical romance are among my favorite bands (not my favorites, but close enough)
[] ive said homie but i think im too much of a prep to say that (fuck no. i say it all the time lol)
[x] i think big guns are the best kind of weapon (and large bombs)
[x] i think hockey is good because of the fights
[x] i dont know what year tupac died in (sad but true. i know some of the 7s theory tho.)

[x] scarface is not the greatest movie ever
[]bill and ted or jay and silent bob is hilarious (never saw it)
[x] i skate (used to)
[x] i have read a comic about superheros or starwars (chyeah boy!)
[x] i like star wars (chyeah boy!)

add up your x’s and multiply them by 4 and you’ll get your whitness percentage

64% w-h-i-t..e! holla!

(btw. i combined the rap one and the one about P!ATD, greenday and MCR as one “point”)

she’s sick today..

ummm, im hoping to find plans today, so if you know me, gimme a holla! lol

pz

or at least it seems that way.

well this week was good. nothing very exciting. worked a couple days, chilled, did HW. fun stuff.

today was good too. CAD was interesting. we were sharing ‘Yo Momma’ jokes.

my personal favorite was: “Yo momma is so fat that when she dances, the band skips”. good stuff.

bilottis class through givler’s class was good. Mrs. Givler made fun of ryan businski and it was good. i was the only one to hear it tho so we were laughing at him which made him confused. then i slept and texted ashleigh through the period.

english was ok. One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest is a good book so far. so hopefully it’ll remain good.

lunch was good as per usual and physics we had a sub!!! what a great way to kill a double period AND end the week.

we did a packet about waves and shit. and then we had mrs. solinas, so we got riddles read to us for jolly ranchers. im the riddle master aha. i got them all right except for one.

symph was good too. Wis’ boot camp aha.

now im here. tonight im going to the movies to see Stick It with some losers. it looks funny, but idk how the plot is gonna agree with me lol. i sound like Ebert and Roper over here.

ok, im done for now. hopefully i’ll post more. PEACE1!

wtf do i do to anyone.

idc anymore. i fuck up at everything.

goodbye.

click it!!!!

weird.

w/e.

good guy website too

inspired by the HTO thread!

me ash and heath hung out while we were waiting greg and got food. then we went to the mall and chilled out for a bit. greg calls and we go pick him up. we go to starbucks then back to his house and we chill out.
great night

today was hysterical. we played wiffleball and me and scott won with 4 points a piece. kyle was next with 2, then brian with 1 and steve and josh with 0.

then we played handball for a while. then came a’s up. but we played “asses” where if you get out three times you get a letter “a”, “s”, “s” then on that last “s” you have to get up against the wall and have a ball thrown at your ass by everyone playing.

well, we played for a while and the first one to get “ass” was brian and he lucked out. i was the only one to hit him, but it hit him square in the ass and it echoed lol. it must have hurt like a bitch.

after him, we get the idea to bust out my video camera and take vids. the next one up was scott who got hit lightly once. then came me. i got nailed once, then the next two went in between my legs, then one went by and my last hit me in the shoulder. not bad

josh was the next he got hit all but 2 times. and mine was the best cause it hit him square in the ass again lol. steve went voluntarily and we hit him once, but it wasnt bad and then i went, missed, he started to dance and i threw it again and nailed him in the side.

it was a short lived victory lol

now im looking for something to do tonight. plans anyone?

ahh yesss!

new album came out tuesday the 11th! it sounds amazing!

i’m definitely going out to buy this when i get the chance!

Find the error!!

A
B
C
D
E
F
G
H
I
J
K
L
M
N
O
P
Q
R
S
T
U
V
W
X
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Did you known that 80% of Stanford students could not find the error in the alphabet above? Repost this in your blog/myspace and when you click Post Bulletin, the answer will show!

Can you get it?

second, i’d like to say, i havent posted in a while

soo, i’ll start with monday..

hung around all day and went to the movies with ashleigh and ally, then got icecream (and shared with ashleigh which turned out to be interesting lol..but the benefit from that was that she fed me as i was driving so i could still steer lol). We chilled at JFK and saw some skaters and some kid was on the roof lol. Then we toured GR and country village then ally was dying so we dropped her at home. Me and ash hung out for a little while longer and then i dropped her at home.

tuesday: blah. did nothing and worked..my gma died, so that sucked
wednesday: same deal..

today: i have her wake and idk what im doing in between or after. i just dont think im gonna be able to sit through two of these things..

friday = funeral, but partizzle afterwards! gonna be a lot of fun

so i think im gonna go for now, i probably wont post till tomorrow earliest so pz <3

when you think about it, a lot of issues would be solved much quicker. fights would last a day, and if someone had an issue, they wouldnt talk behind peoples backs. they’d say it to the other person’s face.

the simplistic thinking we have doesnt exist in women, its always a process. we’d make quicker decisions and sometimes they’d work, sometimes they wouldnt. just like with women, only faster.

we’re also very laid back. if something happens, usually we’re over it in a day whereas women take forever. and if we really hated someone for something, we just wouldnt talk to them.

idk, me and alyssa feel that way..what do you think? would life be easier? let me know how you all feel on the issue! comment this post if you agree/disagree!

i would also like to include siblings, because they are fucking retarded as well. my sister wants to put up an away message, but i’m doing something so i said to her, quick. go on.

she flips out b/c i wont leave the room b/c im doing something for my dad and im monitoring it.

after 5 minutes, i say “screw this” and pull her off the chair and continue.

so after my parents are done yelling at me because apparently me wanting to make sure everything was going OK b/c the last time my sister managed to stop 2 and a half hours of work. personally, i think this is reasonable b/c im doing work and i dont want her touching things that she shouldn’t.

ughh. people just piss me off

how could i forget?!

Anthony was asking us if there was any good stereotypes and Sean Cronin raises his hand and says “Well. How about that black people are well-hung?”

The whole class goes silent, lavey shakes his head, and we burst out into laughter.

sorry. just thought i would throw that in there.

you would have had to be there lol

1 week of relaxation
and at one point, i get a house to myself!

its gonna be a great week!

all because they dont listen and comprehend anything said to them

its literally like speaking to a brick wall. your words bounce back at you and nothing can penetrate it.

and its extremely frustrating, and im getting extremely angry.

3rd period topped most of the day. we had the gay Planned Parenthood man talking about sexual orientation. he’s hysterical. he made us list gay/lesbian stereotypes and he helped us with such things as “booty-huggers” (for gay guys) and “porno” lesbians. lol. but the best thing would have to be when we were discovering where the word faggot game from. first he asked us what it meant and it meant a bundle of sticks and a ciggarette. so someone says “its because they smoke a lot!” like an ass and i say “yeah. they smoke sausage” and we all burst out laughing. as cavanaugh put it, “it was clutch”.

oh and when he described a stereotypical lesbian, he pretty much described Ms. Gomez (which she could be..) and Lavey was trying so hard not to laugh. soo gooddd

and another highlight: seeing lobo throw some kid down. that was amazing.

i have to finish my english paper today. ew.

oh and that reminds me..ed is bringing in a delicious sandwhich for me tomorrow!!

another aside: check out headphones turned on. the homepage turned out pretty good and i have to edit a few things. and we added an arcade! amazing stuff going on over there! the link is in my links list!

school was fun. (ms. lopez loves the fact that i showed her how to save people tons and tons of points on their paper so she made corrections for me on my works cited. not only that, but she burned me a CD with corrections made for me. so thats not gonna be any points off on that damn paper lol)

got home and messed around on the comp…i had one of those Hungry Man Ready-made dinners. it wasnt bad at all! it thawed a little, so it messed up the brownie, but the buffalo-chicken was really good! i was impressed b/c it was a ready-made dinner.

before work tho, my mom decides to tell me as im getting ready to go that i have to drop off the car at the mechanic’s and walk the rest of the way..i was late might i add…

however, i cheered up immediately when i saw some amish dude yelling at kids on bikes and seeing a police officer controlling the situation. that made me laugh hard lol.

great day at work tho. i spent 2 hours out of 4 fooling around with my co-workers. it was me, pat, tim (cheese), and owen working the floor. i rang for a while, faced, but the other times, we were cleaning up the back and clearing the floor. at the end tho, we played dodgeball and it was me and pat in sudden death. the first round we both missed. i threw first, but the balls are quite slippery (yeah. that sounded weird lol) and i threw it wide. pat threw his at me and i did a matrix move and managed to stay in the triangle lol. second round, pat throws immediately and i dodge out of the way. i throw it and he jumps into it. WINNER! lol

also, we turned off the lights and i ran a gauntlet (b/c we thought it’d be a good idea to make one) and i hit cheese on my way out and he opens the pharmacy door (which has an alarm) and the alarm starts goin off. me and pat sprint out and blame it on cheese lol. but he did open it. i kinda pushed him, but we arent counting that.

oh and btw. i skitched on cheese’s car for like 50 feet. and there were cops nearby..and my mom saw and beat me lol. it was worth it tho.

good times at work!

and that they have a record label (INXS helped ‘em with that!)

and that they rock

and that they kick ass

and that i’m glad i’m listening to marty again.

(For those that dont know, i loved the show “Rockstar: INXS” and i was upset Marty didnt win…but the band members said that they’d give him anything he needed with his band, music-wise cause he was amazing, which he was.)

oh, my day? it was good.

that assembly was retarded. it was a play-type thing and i really thought i was goign to die.

but it meant shortened periods. and an hour and change with lavey. which is always a good time lol.

i wasnt this afternoon tho which made me happy. i moved some wood from the front yard that needed to be in the back which was nice cause it was heavy and i havent done heavy lifting in a while.

then i got a nice chunk of my research paper done which was amazing cause i wont have to do it the night its due.

ummm thats about it.

i might go to the mall later to get some cologne cause im out of axe and i want to change it up like i do every year. i think im gonna get kirra like i had in 10th. but im gonna see what the vurt smells like before i do anything

ok, im outta hea
pz

well, last night was interesting. highlights:

thats it i think. great night.

today = ehhh. not very good

best part was soccer tho. we played spanish kids which was quite exciting. we basically fooled around. i played well the 1st half and felt like i was gonna puke all over the place after it so i didnt play the second half. instead, we were joking around. steve did some crazy moves including the fake header. Cele almost scored at the end, but he got denied and then he pushed a kid on his face. The ref called the game cause it was getting too rough. But we def. won the gay ass moves contest. cause we’re cool like that.

oh yeah. i owned a spanish kid. actually two. but one pushed me down. it was really gay. oh well.

ummm..tonight.. more HTO stuff which should be good b/c we’ll hopefully have the site up today..keyword: hopefully. lol. it all depends on how long my comp lasts lol.

speaking of which..i should be getting one this month!!! macbook? chyea man!

another thing im getting soon: debit card! cant wait to debit my life away lol. (just kidding. i have control lol)

umm. nothing else to say. other than sorry. but thats another story that im not getting into on this. you know who you are, and i truely am sorry….

peaceee

idk why i typed like that.

but wow. lol

ok, so me mollye and evan went to get tacobell and we were ordering and this lady behind us beeps cause we were taking too long. so we pull up to pay and pick up our food and we were checking to make sure that we had everything and she beeps again. so, i look in the rear view mirror (and this was in the mustang with the top down so i could see clearly) and there is a guy hanging out the window aiming a bottle at our car. so i turn around and say “go ahead, i dare you to!” and evan turns and screams “i love you!”.

the guy gets out of the car and its this big black guy, dark as night, with a do-rag on and he screams at us mollye is waving her arms and he calls her a “punk-ass white bitch”. Now he starts to throw the bottle, i throw it in reverse to scare him. he stops, and i got the fuck outta there. Then he launches the bottle at us and almost hit us. I was scared for my life.

When he got out of the car, i almost died right there. i thought he was going to take out a weapon and kill all three of us.

so yeah. that was the highlight of my day lol.

work 4-8 today. then movies con ally and ashleigh. i think we’re seeing She’s The Man.

outta heaaa

in bilotti’s class we pretty much did nothing. we made fun of the presidential debates (2004′s), talked about scary movie 4 which looks pretty good, and watched tom and sean go back and forth with insuts which was amusing. we also were teasing ed because they spelled “brazil” wrong on his shirt (not really. in american its like that, its actually “brasil” but thats the point of us teasin him lol)

health was interesting. we made our tshirts. “Weeds are for wackin, besides, i’d rather be mackin!” ::insert stick figure in capt. morgan pose:: lol

calc. always a pleasure
lunch = same.

physics…wow. lol. i finished a 60-80 minute test in 20 minutes and then me and bruce were singing my humps like the black eyed peas. yeah, we’re cool.

now im home and bored.
i’m probably gonna start my research paper later.

im out tho. pzz

click!

im home tonight unless something magically comes up

call the cell or IM me if you wanna do anything!

but about The Fray,

me and bruce were talking about this the other day: we saw them live. They opened for Weezer. I didnt know that at all. lol

idr them much, but i know i thought they were OK, and that they were like 2972x better than taking back sunday (who suck live). i didnt know the band’s name either, so that didnt help lol.

random much? yeah.

anyways.

i hate people sometimes. the ones that are bitches. the ones that put words in other people’s mouths. the ones that like to make shit up. the ones that talk about people behind their backs. the ones that say shit about you and your friends and cant back it up. and especially the ones that can’t understand why you/others are mad when you are act this way and think that you deserve sympathy for what you’ve done.

fuck you.

with that out of the way. the play was good (esp john rohan having a baby ahahahaha). we lost count of how many times kathryn kissed bobby lol. i met up with a lot of people and i even got cake

movies hopefully tonight.

im done for now. pz

i love gangstarr. i think that rap should be like that. amazing beats, good lyrics, and just a good flow. something to chill out to.

anyways

so things have been going well

i missed a fight in lunch yesterday cause me and ally walked out early to chase after rob and shauna. 3 on 1 girl fight from what i hear.

the fights are getting retarded. its really becoming stupid to fight. wtf does it prove? that you’re bigger and stronger physically than the other person? that means nothing. prove that you’re the bigger and stronger person by walking away or just solving your problems verbally and non-aggressively. if someone swings at you, go ahead, defend yourself, but i mean really, violence is stupid

ok, with that out of the way, plans so far for the rest of the week:

tonight: west side story. 8PM. Rydeszki Hall. (school auditorium)
friday: movies with ashleigh, heather, and greg to see Stay Alive. looks pretty good.
saturday: work, then possibly out with people depending on who is going tothe play and who isnt.
sunday: soccer game. idk when/where lol

aight. i gotta get ready for some sharks and jets…and catherine making out with bobby cordina ahahahahah. oh study hall. oh and that knife fight scene where they snap their fingers in a fight circle lol.

PZ OUT

um. school = boring as usual

then i did HW for a while today. i also snuck a nap in.

now im going to bed early cause i need the sleep.

not a lot to talk about over here.

so i’m peacin out.

school was cool
worked 2:30-6:30 cause i covered for angela whos dad is in the hospital.

so im gonna eat, come back on for a little, then get off at 9 and watch TV until 10. i need sleep really bad esp. with my allergies acting up

hopefully i’ll be alive tomorrow lol

work from 10-4 was OK. then after everyone couldnt go to the beach and chill, me and ashleigh went tothe movies and saw The Hills Have Eyes, which sucked. it was just bloody and shit. nothing special. i dont even know what the point of it was. it was just dumb.

then i drove her home and i came back here and i was online till 12:30-1ish

overall good day

oh well.

6-10 tonight. if you arent too drunk, come visit me!

mrs. flynn can suck my dick.

other than that, it was a good day.

progress report was good.

happy st. patrick’s day. however, i have work today. so i cant party

um. not much to say really..so im outta here. pzz

NHS tonight

McDonalds before.

then bed. sounds good to me

i caught the first which was like a 10 person brawl. johnstone put most of those kids in their place aha.

then there were like 5 others. someone got jumped, a 15 person brawl in the main lobby (Mrs. perry VS 15 people. she called security over the loudspeaker to the main lobby and we all got nervous cause we didnt know what was going on. so it sounded like our school was getting attacked lol)

Eric Medez got jumped and other fights were breaking out randomly.

every important school official was there and cops are swarmming outside our school lol

so yeah, our school is going to shit. Tom Santoro and James Freeman say its cause of the spanish people lol. its racist, but its true. thats where the fights stemmed from. the spanish kids hating the white kids. as racist as it may seem, they are right.

AND our budget def. wont pass, so we’re talking an 8 period day (instead of 9) with 46 minute periods (instead of 40). other rumors include teacher cuts (2 from each department at least), no sports, no electives, no AP classes. These are rumors, but who knows whats gonna really happen.

EI sucks lol

[ ] the dark
[ ] staying single
[ ] getting married
[ ] being a parent
[ ] giving birth
[ ] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[ ] closed spaces
[x] heights (not really. its more of being super high with nothing to keep you from falling)
[ ] cats
[ ] dogs
[ ] birds
[ ] spiders and/or other insects
[ ] driving or being in cars
[ ] flying
[ ] being put to sleep (anesthesia)
[ ] flowers or other plants
[ ] being touched
[ ] fire
[ ] water
[ ] the ocean
[ ] pools
[x] failure
[ ] success
[ ] germs
[ ] thunder/lightning (i loveeee thunder storms)
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] mice/rats
[x] jumping from high places (only things taller than two of me (10 feet or so))
[ ] snow
[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] cemeteries
[ ] clowns
[ ] large crowds
[ ] demons or evil
[ ] crossing bridges
[x] death
[ ] Hell
[ ] Heaven
[x] being robbed
[ ] being sexually assulted
[ ] men
[ ] women
[ ] having great responsibility
[ ] doctors, including dentists
[ ] tornadoes (as long as i’m not in it lol)
[ ] hurricanes (i love storms so much lol)
[ ] being punished
[x] diseases, including cancer and STD’s
[ ] snakes
[ ] sharks
[ ] dinosaurs
[ ] Friday the 13th
[x] poverty
[ ] ghosts
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains or railroads
[ ] fear
[ ] being alone
[ ] losing my friends (i have AMAZING friends. im not afraid of losing them at all)
[x] being blind
[x] being deaf
[x] growing up (college and beyond)
[ ] being murdered in my sleep

10/66. not scared of a lot i guess lol

im quite bored right now. but im in a good mood today

um. the bike ride was good yesterday. at first the wind was killing me. then i hit that back stretch of the park by the beaches and i gathered so much speed from the wind that at one point i blew by a truck that was probably going the speed limit (20-30mph).

at night i watched the real world finally. svetlana is so effing good looking, but she’s a little annoying lol. and i love how much of a dick head that gay guy is lol. the anerexic girl angers me cause she’s anerexic and thinks hse’s fat. hate it.

bells gonna ring. more lata

peaceeee

they’re softer music, but i love it.

anyways. i got everything but one goal accomplished. and thats working out.

sooo i’ve decided to ride my dad’s racing bike.

sprint lap around the edge of the park. i really hope its not too windy or i’m gonna be dead.

school was ok. single period of maddia was super.

oh and happy pi day! 3.14! too bad we couldnt get bagels and measure the circumfrence or the area

and 143 deriving pi lol

lunch = sweettart war. it was nuts lol. rob got bitched by cutaia w/ them and the cafeteria all shouted “OHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!” lol. too funny.

thats really the highlights. so i’m gonna do this and cycle. PEACEONE.

I’ll prob be online in between. and lets see if half this shit actually happens (and by half i mean chores and working out lol)

pzz sonnnn

:-\

i cant focus with like no sleep and staying up for 18 hours straight.

i think im just gonna leave some of it undone. idc lol.

leave something i’ll love to cheer me upp

ahaha. oh steve.

well, this night had two sides.

Side 1: when i was happy. i was dancing, laughing, joking around, playing vball, talking to aaron, alyssa, kristen, TJ, etc. and i just had an AMAZING time

Side 2: me being lonely and depressed. everyone found someone but me. i had no one. i’m not gonna get into it, but i’m not gonna lie. i just wanted someone to lie down and cuddle with. that was the last 6 or so hours. so i was just BLAH the second half of the night. idk what to do right now. i’m very lost with my life, in particular, my love life.

like i said, i just needed someone last night. not even to spite the others. i just needed someone of my own. and i couldnt find that someone.

1st period: rob calabrese didnt know what a carpet muncher was so we were pissing him off like crazy. it was hysterical, because 5 of us and my teacher knew what it was so we were pissing him off so bad lol
2nd period: heard about bilotti’s dream. pretty gay. FLAVA FLAVVV lol
3rd period: study hall. always good lol. i even went to the cafe bar to get some espresso
4th period: AP calc test. i had an epiphany that may have saved my ass lol
5th period: Research paper. Index cards = gayy
6th period: Lunch. went out for taco bell with bill yosi and barry. we almost got stuck b/c bill’s car wouldnt sight. we shoulda taken my car lol. that made us a little late to physics
7th period: we watched jurassic park b/c it used electricity and circuits lol. the part where the kid is climbing the fence and gets zapped.
8th period: weight room. i found out tom santorro’s parents are dead. both of them. it was quite sad b/c that ballad by disturbed (idr the title) about losing someone and goign into depression.
9th period: symphony. i found out that mollye and alyssa placed 4th in the state for DECA which was very cool.

vacuumed out the mustang and cleaned the kitchen and a little bit of the room.

now im making plans to go out later w/ people and make some shirts for the walk on sat. night

peace out kids

thank god its back b/c i have so many posts on here lol

i think i mite take a run today. i havent in a while.

i also have to run into CVS at 6ish to get index cards and finalize people covering for me.

peaceee

school was cool.
kutzler drew a funny comic during study hall
i gave out some of my world-famous massages during lunch
physics sucked like usual

health project take 3 today. super.

tty all later

it said “i’ll be your private dancer” and the guy said “oooo, okkk. lap dances!! let me take out all my dollar bills!” in the gayest voice ever lol

cody was PWNED in the ass. just how he takes it.

(sorry to all you gays (namely, brian lol), i just dont like cody and i also think he should come out of the closet. lol)

work today. ew. 6-10. come visit if you like.

lol

we’re getting no where in this thing

and we have no video being that we’re scratching it for something else.

super.

the best part is that i really dont care

didnt do much, but i still wasnt in the mood for it.

:-\

listen to “New Sermon”

so gooddd

ahh irish punk.

anyways. st patty’s day parade. very interesting lol

i drove erica and cara down and we split up, then i walked and met up with ashleigh who was with her dad and his friend, we walked around and i found maisie (im watching her dog in april..jacuzzi party! (not really lol)). then we ran into julianne, sarah, john rohan, and several random people. Then we ran into more random people (i saw matt again lol) including matt (as stated before), ryan tourt, dave lobo, chris buzzi, and mollye nad kristen were getting manicures and pedicures. gay.

then me and ashleigh did more walking to try and find kyle and steve. we finally found them and chilled. we learned how blind people say hi lol. i threatened to throw ashleigh into a firetruck. ummm. we laughed at people. including that black lady’s hair, some guys with pimp sticks (aka the marching band leader dude’s staff) some person who dropped their drumstick, etc.

then we walked to CVS and ash had to leave so we went with out her. she gave kyle a hug but not me and steve. gay lol. then we walked inthere and got some stuff (including my schedule lol). apparently i have a lot of cousins and kids lol. then me kyle and steve went to 7-11 and got slurpees. then we met up with our group again by dunkin donuts.

we just chilled in the middle of the parking lot and scared kids in dunkin donuts. we also got our lives threatened by some kidsin a white bronco. it didnt phase us either. we were laughing about it and steve waved and said “thank you” when they threatened us. alls we said is thattheir truck looked like OJ Simpson’s lol. his name is OJ Simpson Jr. lol.

then after all that shit. we went home.

im tired so i think i’ll do some practicing of the viola, then idk. peaceee

then i worked on the health project which was fucking awesome lol. i got drawn on and h-train got ‘tiqued.

then i went home washed up and worked out plans

first we went to applebees, ate then went into the parking lot. there we sat and me and yosi were talking about our cars, and reving our engines. we took people’s stuff and drove away with it. i drove kristen ON my car. then we found out jay was having people over for a partay.

sooo. me and yosi burned out and took off (i over steered. eek!). we got gas and jetted towards jay’s house.

side note: cops were EVERYWHERE tonight.

anyways, we got there and partied. no drinking for me as i was a driver. strobe light. music. cascada. amazing!!

then i drove shayna home and we agreed that everyone that we hung out with should go to hooters and ice skating

so im here. typing.

st patty’s day parade tomorrow!

then idk

cells gonna be on all day if you need to reach me.

i mite go watch the parade on my break today even if i dont know anyone there lol

video for the health project is gonna be shooting today across the street lol

then maybe out later?

well, yesterday was ok.

school was boring as usual and i got home and did some stuff then ate then chilled out online cause someone bailed

just kidding. its ok. i wasnt bored

my mom had a party which was a meeting of her “selfish club” thing.

its a pretty good concept.

you join the club and each week you throw in $20. Each week they randomly pick a person to win the pot (which is $200 now?) and every person must be picked before people can be picked again. The person must spend the money on themselves and it can’t be something you were already gonna spend the money on and it must be for you only! (IE, no sharing the money, no spending it on bills). The winner must then host the “meeting” which is really a party lol. (my mom had 2 cases of coronas in my garage for these ladies. i dont think they got through one lol)

i think its pretty cool. all i know is that my mom used some of the money to get a massage. thats about it.

ok i need food. so im outta here. pzzz

what a good quote lol

SICK!

people say things, but im not sure if anyone is serious anymore. i feel like people say things joking, but dont let me in on it.

i guess i should stop believing people, but then again, what if people are being serious?

its very confizzling. im not sure what i should do.

idk

someone save me.

snow today. vball game was cancelled

jess wants me to play when its rescheduled. i think i mite. i just need a team tho.

i also want to participate in dodgeball..also need a team for that.

i’ll work some shit out and get some teams together.

so i need something to do..let me know if you can help me out there lol

in the meantime i’ll talk to all you kids.

peaceee

everyone is now telling me my dad is hot or they want to meet him.

WTF?!

chyeaa dodgeball today. The wrestling team was the winning team this year. However jay and co.’s team came in second this year instead of falling down last year!

The animals (ashleigh’s team) did ok, but lost two in a row knocking them out of the tourny

The cocks (kyle and steve’s team) fell the same way and lost a devastating game against UHAB (uzair has a bomb) where kyle VSed hoff 1v1. Almost! (They beat the math dept. which was a surprise lol jkk)

The hurricanes(rob and rob’s team)..well..they sucked lol

mollye got hit by a ball. again. and alyssa got hit 3 times lol.

i took one for mollye once only because she was using me as a shield lol

after i hung around with stage crew and then went home

cleaned my room today

other then that im bored. i think its time for halo. peace kidss

its just weird.

idkkk

just thought i’d share my uncertainty with you all

definitely no one i know. including my self. at all.

::coughtwohourdelaycough::

wtf.

its not normal.

i even heard some gay kid say i was “looking good” (im assuming he was gay being that it was a guy’s voice lol)

wtfff

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